Practicing Kindness to My Mother

Being a loner who doesn't care much for people has its own advantages and disadvantages. For example, I have no problem to ignore gossips and the superficial concerns and I am rarely biased. However, that also means I haven't got a lot of friends or have good communication skill.

While I seldom care about such thing, I do care about not hurting other people feelings especially those who don't deserve to be treated badly like my mother.

Because I am a loner, I dislike others to invade my personal space (it's as big as my bedroom), or be in other's company for long. Because I am a quiet person and like silent, I dislike noise and have hard time to concentrate in busy place. Because I tend to be a single minded person, I tend to concentrate on one thing at a time, hate interruptions and work quite slow.

All of these combinations make me a hard person to be with unless you're very patient or an introvert that rarely go out of he/her room (read: someone similar to me). Since I live with my mother and rarely go out... guess who is my favorite victim? My mother. She definitely doesn't deserve it.

That's one of the reason why I want to change and be a better person.

It's easier said than done though. I have been been asked if I have no feeling a couple of times so I think that should tell you how bad I am at showing my feeling and the lack of remorse for whatever wrong I've done. So I ended up doing a research. It's quite funny though because I have to resort to relationship advice for men XD

How to Show a Woman That You Care is a good read. It contains practical advices on how to treat a woman (though I think men deserve to be treated like that too). Some of the advices even contain link to other article that describes the point in detail. Very helpful. Wish me luck!